I've been dealing with the desire to give up Facebook. I say "dealing" because as much as I'd like to, it seems like it would be the hardest thing ever and I'm actually a little afraid to do so. Even though I gave it up for lent, and thoroughly enjoyed not being on all the time. And the first two weeks in Canada we had no internet at our apartment or even data on our phones....meaning I was only on facebook when I went to a coffee shop; it was great! I tried to come up with certain days or times that I would allow myself on, but that was more of an idea rather than a plan of action. I have no self-discipline and just can't stay off of it. Which I very much don't like. I don't like wanting to get on when Malachi is awake and watching me, I don't like comparing myself to others on FB or getting annoyed with what people post, I don't like rushing back from a walk or outing so that I can check whats new on FB. I'm actually addicted to it and I hate it! Now don't get me wrong I do appreciate a way to stay in touch with people but right now I feel that the negative it brings into my life outweighs the positive. I've been praying for the grace to give it up but didn't feel like I was getting anywhere, if anything the nagging feeling had started to go away, until the past couple of days. With that said I'd like to mention a couple of other things for a second.
While we were in California visiting my Grandma my Uncle was visiting as well. He had mentioned that he was fasting from chocolate, and offering it up for our president's conversion. I was so impressed with his self-sacrifice and thought I should do something of that sort too...but not until I got home of course, wouldn't want to ruin any vacation with fasting of some sort. Well, I've been "home" for almost two months and never did anything about it.
As most of you would know Pope Francis asked for a day of prayer and fasting last Saturday for peace in Syria and around the world. My first thought was "ugh, I don't want to fast on Saturday!" But by God's grace the day came and it wasn't so bad.
SO with the inspiration of my uncle and Pope Francis' plea for fasting the other day I've decided to combine the two and incorporate it into my life by fasting from Facebook and offering it up for peace in the world.
I decided today is the perfect day to start, seeing as it is the anniversary of 9/11/01. I'm not sure how long I will do this, I'm still praying about that but here it goes! If any of you decide to do anything of this sort, I'd love to hear about it.